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Monday, January 02, 2006
Argh.. Feeling so troubled..(looking gloomy) So many things have been poping in my mind now...all kinds of worries just appeared so suddenly.. i guess all this worries and frustration have been in me for so a very long time but i am just running away from it.. argh...i always have this stupid habit of running away from things .... its a new year and a new post.. i shouldn't be crapping about upseting stuff ..but i cant help it... how i wish one day, i could just leave everything behind and run away from this place.. run to a place where i will be happy and free from all this crap.. but....(self-console) it is when you suffer from all this crap that you will understand the real meaning of happiness and joy.. (smile) however thank goodness at such a cold night.. i still have my pillow to accompany me.. (showing my sunny shine smile) what is better than having a great pillow to accompany you.. because at times when you are studying alone.. one might feel really lonely.. it was these few years that i realise loneliness at times could be so horrifying...elaborate... but i am training hard to overcome this.. and i am sure i can make it.. hehehe.. i remembered the days when i stayed up all night to study for my 'O' ..hehe.. what an experience.. i remembered how fearful i was when i wanted to study my poa... i was so scare that i need to take a deep breathe before i open my poa file.. funny isn't it? haha.. but thats how scare i was.... haha...all this seems to have happen just months ago.. yet these memories seem to be fading away.. hm....ahh..i am feeling really relieve now... after saying all my frustration out.. i feel like a ballon which air have been inflated out... what a relieve .. no more tension and tightness.. just an inflated ballon.. Biboobiboobiibiiboooo bibibibibibooo.. hehe.. i am just humming my happy song...you guys better say it sound nice.. if not..(grrrr)hehe.. ok..thats all..tata~