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Friday, February 10, 2006
I am soo confuse... i am sooo damn confuse... there are lot of things that are going around my head... shit.. i feel like i am in a state of confusion... all kinds of feelings just came pouring down on me... i shouldn't have read that blog.. i shouldn't have been soo luck that i manage to link to her blog... she cause me to be in a state of confusion... a junior that admires her senior, it seem like such a normal thing that would happen to any 16 year old girls... she is just a little girl that fills her blog with her admiration for that guy.. that guy.... a guy who had a gf.... her blog soon became a popular website for JJcian... lots of JJcian went to her blog to leave comments.. some scolded her for being the third party of the couple .. some encourage her by telling her that it wasn't wrong admiring someone... ya.. it seem to me that.. it is ok for a little girl like her to admire her seniors.. but there are rumours saying that the guy's gf felt insecure... being insecure??!! .. it was then that it hit me soo hard.. ya .. i guess.. if it was me.. i will feel the same way too.. it was just like that time.... i seem to have gone back in time.. back to the moment when i saw that... at that time it hurts soo much that after seeing it.. i burst into tears... is it wrong to like someone? is it? can someone please tell me? i guess.........the problems lies in that that guy had a gf.. thats why..... the couple broke up not long ago... the guy's gf say it wasn't the 16 year old girl's fault but the problem lies between them... is it really true?? or that girl did interval their relationship?? there was no answer... only they themself knows the answer...


i am trying really hard to let go.. but somehow..it seems so difficult.... nevermind.. i will just let time heal my pain..