Its monday once again and i am feeling so relieve now.. ahhh.. as the one and only test this week is finally over... haiz.. tests and tests.. all these tests have been falling on me one by one.. it wasnt that bad in jan but then it is starting to get worse each month. Week after week we have something to do , something to study for and something to reivse for.. these have been going on for weeks and i am starting to forget the feeling of freedom and leisurely of daydreaming... gosh.. an more tests are coming up.. i guess having tests every week is the better for me. as it will constantly remind me to study hard... today's physics practical was quite bad.. but it was better than the one before.. i cheated a little, actually its a lot but then nvm.. i hope they dont see it though..hehehe... btw, i just bought a billabong wallet yesterday.. i love my new wallet, it is really nice and cool but then it is a little expensive though.. hahaha.. i showed it to pui ying today and to our surprise she wanted to buy that wallet too.. hahaha.. unbelievably we wasn't together on sunday but then we saw the same wallet on the same day, in the same place and both of us fellen in love will the same wallet, but then i manage to buy that before her.. gosh.. now we will have the same wallet... stop copying me hor pui ying...hehehehe..chat with pui ying for a while today, she told me she was thinking of giving up.. but then i thought it was such a pity as she have been there for him for so long.. but then he can't seem to take notice of it... whats wrong with all the guys around? hahaha.. we are facing the same fate but mine is a little worse than hers..so i hope she doesn't give up because there isn't any conclusion for me, so i am hoping she and him will have one.... shit... we will be getting our 'AO' chinese results and our project work result on wed.. gosh... help help... i hope i can pass both.. prayingggg..... praying real hard....


my slient cry.....in the past, you never had high hopes for me and i never did wanted you to have high hopes on me.. i was afraid i would disappoint you , destroying your wishes and dreams... never did i showed you my results but then when you find out my results.. high hopes grew on me..you even told me your dream of me entering into JC but then you never know my slient cry during the nights when i am afraid of failing your hopes and dreams.. when i entered into JC, people are shock when they heard it...people wonder if it was my sis who helped me along the way, it wasn't, it was a route i made on my own... i enter into jc as you have wished by i following your plan, your wishes and your dreams... because i know that you wanted me too... now, once again you told me your dreams, your hope and wishes.. i know i had to fulfill it... but still you never did notice my slient cries.......
i struggle and struggle... i wasn't born smart but i did it all for you.. i was hoping i can make you proud.. make you happy... day after day.. i studied just to let you acknowledge that having me was worth it...

i nearly cry when i got my promotion results last year, it wasnt about the bad results but it was the slient encouragement from my math teacher... an encouragement that i have been longing to heard and eager to accept..... in this way,at least i know that there is still someone there to run this race with me.. and not just waiting for me at the finish line....

a detailed autobiography of you goes here.

All American Rejects, Angels and Airwaves, Arctic Monkeys, Blink 182, Bloc Party, Coldplay, Counting Crows, Death Cab for Cutie, Evanescence, Fall Out Boy, The Feeling, Franz Ferdinand, Gorillaz, Green Day, Hawthorne Heights, Jack Johnson, Jimmy Eat World, The Juliana Theory, Lily Allen, Kaiser Chiefs, The Killers, Kooks, Kyo, The Network, OK Go, Paramore, P!ATD, The Raconteurs, Razorlight, Snow Patrol, Weezer, Wheatus