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Saturday, December 08, 2007
it have been so long since i blog.
i guess the love for blogging have gone missing again. hahaha.

i have been thinking quite a lot these few days.
thinking how i have not try to put an effort when i am in a situation whereby i am meeting new ppl. thinking about all the excuses i have made just to run away from such situtation. i must admit i have improve a little due to my friend influence but then i still feel that that isnt enough.
should i just stop running?
or should i just let me be.

at times i dislike myself for thinking too much. at times i dislike myself for saying things i dont mean it. at time i dislike myself for letting bad things control me. at times i just dislike myself.

i am not sure which is the real me. i told my friend this but she say that thats becoz we are still growing up. we are still looking for our identity. really? i hope i find the real me soon.

i dont like that my love for god seems like its a period thingy. i want it to stay. coz for that he have done. i want it to stay.